brighteyesandpinstripes:

melchan8:

Remember the Name by ~CARstiel

#sometimes they lower his dose if he shows improvement #this is a mistake #because he is very good at hiding his torment from them when he chooses to #when he gets a chance alone #when his mind is free-wheeling #screaming the same name over and over though he has no idea what it means #DEAN #he slashes thin cuts across his wrists with a syringe from the sharps box #slashes and stabs and rips at his flesh until he bleeds #DEAN #presses his fingers to the cuts and dyes them red #DEAN #he thinks #if he can just get the name out #if he can just make it real #maybe it’ll go away #DEAN #he swipes his fingers across the wall to form the letters #DEAN #DEAN #over and over #he’s exhausted #DEAN #his white shirt is stained dark and he feels faint but he has to keep going #DEAN #DEAN #DEAN #the walls are screaming it #DEAN #DEAN

(via destielsextape)